These tiresome paper dreams..

A lot has been going on.

but since I don't even know where to begin, I'm not going to.

school is coming to an end. and I'm glad about it. I need some sunshine, some lazy days, and some old friends.

it is really strange to have this year under my belt, so to speak. If you'd have told me 6 months ago that I would be happily alive today I would have laughed, and then cried for hours. I was an emotional wreck back in those days, and I almost forget about that until I realize how happy I am at the moment.

I still need a lot of help, among other things.

I need to stop reading/checking symptoms on webmd.com, it's bad news.

I need to recover from this incessant illness. My neck/eyelids are swollen to 1.5 times their usual sizes.

I need to learn to budget. I'm no good at living within my means.

I need a lover who won't drive me crazy.

I need to calm down.

I need to remember that I like people, even when they aren't around.

I need to eat all of the food in my cupboard by the end of this month, even the gross food.

I need to figure some things out.

I need to do laundry.

I need to fight the desire to wear parachute pants, and ONLY parachute pants.

I need to take out the trash.

I need to go home.

I need you. all of you.