I'm not really sure how to say this, because I'm not really sure how I feel.
My Nana died on Monday, I think.
I feel removed and deeply affected.
As my nana lay dying, I dreamt of her death.
Dad didn't call me until Tuesday, as he only found out Monday night, and he didn't want me to lose sleep.
I didn't answer his phone call because I didn't want to hear what he had to say.
I didn't want to know.
I still kind of wish I didn't know.
She's the first person I've lost.
And the thought of my entire overseas family trying to exist without her breaks my heart.
I wrote her a letter, telling her I loved her and that I am doing well.
that was probably the most difficult thing I've ever had to write.
what do you write in a letter to a dying woman?
I still love her.
but I don't feel so well, anymore.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
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1 comment:
i'm kinda glad you posted something about this, not sure why.
ily
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